Aug/11/25 Thoughts

I feel so down today, everything seems wrong, no job, no partner, no hope, money is running out patience is running out too. I relapsed and I'm high rn out of sadness and boredom.

I can't get over her, she's in every thought I think, thing I do, place I visit. It's not fair the amount of time I am spending trying to get rid of her.

Don't know what to do anymore, I do what I can but apparently is not enough and don't know where to get energy from to push harder.

Friends left me out, betrayed me or at least that's how it feels, being left out from events, can't go to other events because she's there and nobody cares, nobody.

It is EXHAUSTING and can't take it anymore, something needs to change, don't know what right now but I must figure it out or there will be no exit.