My Diary Say February 1, 2025

DISCLAIMER I have this thoughts pretty frequent, write them and publishing it makes me feel better and helps me calm down. This posts talks about death and self harm, please read it with an open mind.

Im afraid to write and fall again. I feel devastated and surrendered by everything that it’s happening.

My mom avoids me, —redacted—, I fell trapped, I hope that finding a job helps with this.

I fell that everything is matter of time. Life or death, it’s matter of time. And here comes my suicidal thoughts that I’ve been running away from so hard…

I feel I’ve lost everything, everything and I’m starting from 0 again, when is it gonna end?